Several weeks ago I decided to quite playing World of Warcraft to free up time to work on other things. I quite, and I now have more time. The problem, although I’m not playing the game anymore, I haven’t said good-bye to it. I still want to play and I still live in that universe. Sometimes leaving just isn’t simple.
So, how does one let go? Personally, I don’t know yet. The worrying question is that I am not sure I want to. There is definitely a part of me that still wants to play the game. What I don’t want to do is go back and play with my old guild. Was this all just a pretense to leave my guild? I don’t know. I do know I was tired of living by a set of rules that, although oddly successful, should have destined the guild’s raiding efforts a failure.
This whole, “let’s get creative”, thing is proving harder than I suspected. I am finding it hard to “just show up”. I find myself doing anything other than being creative; watching tv, reading, watching movies, etc. I really like having the spare time and freedom offered from not playing anymore, but there is definitely a lot more work and understanding left in this journey.